26

I am not myself today
Washed my legs and shaved my face
Did my hair a different way
I am not myself today
I'm a phone in the mattress
Keys in the door

I'm the hair tie you dropped in the car on the floor
I'm the stranger you're kissin'
The thing that went missin'
That no one is lookin' for
Oh, I'm freakin' out

Tryin' not to turn this car right around
'Cause there ain't a feelin' I'm not tryna fix
I'm not a grown-up, but I'm not a kid
It hurts every time I'm reminded
I'm not dyin'
I'm just 26
I do not agree today
I do not agree with the terms that I signed

Rip up the documents, undot the line
'Cause I do not agree today
I'm a phone in the mattress
Keys in the door

I'm as lost as I was at 18 if not more
I'm the stranger you're kissin'
The thing that went missin'
That I don't have time to look for
Oh, I'm freakin' out

Tryin' not to turn this car right around
'Cause there ain't a feelin' I'm not tryna fix
I'm not a grown-up, but I'm not a kid
It hurts every time I'm reminded
I'm not dyin'
I'm just 26

Maybe if I just called home
More than two times a year
Maybe if I stop needin'
Every grocery cashier to fall deeply and madly in love with me
Somethin' is probably, certainly wrong with me
I just can't handle it stayin' the same
But I am not willin' to change
I am not willin' to change