This is only the beginning

Four shots deep, I'm out alone again
'Cause I don't really know who to call friend, yeah
Should have stayed home, but I'd rather pretend
That I'm not gonna lose it, I know what I'm doing, yeah

I call you, but you never pick up
Maybe I'm just

Patience is a virtue
But heaven isn't for someone like me
And I would only hurt you
Standing on your shoulders in the deep

It’s hunting season
Always all or nothing
My legs are so tired
How is anybody running?
Why the hell am I
So devoid of any meaning?

Skin and bones, stomach aches
Lucid dreams, hold my breath
When I'm wide awake
Connecticut, dissociate
Maybe I should buy a house
In a town upstate

If I could, I'd wake myself up when I am somebody that I'm proud of

I'm getting undressed for my lover
And prayi

It's my fault that you're leaving
'Cause I can't give you reasons
Letting go has been my weakness
And I'm so sorry that I am this way
(So sorry that I am this way, so sorry that I am this way)

I'm so scared I love you still
I'm so scared I love you still
I'm so scar

Red flags You look for red flags I never see em Stars signs I watch the night sky You don't believe em You think you need a second, you need a second, said you see right through me But I thin

I'm falling I'm counting my steps from the top to the bottom All I wanted I still needed more just as soon as I got it Baby I'm scared we're gonna die still living like this Maybe Satisfactio

I got ideas of you and me on my mind And we got two nights down on the lower Eastside We got Don Julio, some Diet Coke A couple joints that we could smoke 'Cause you and me, we got nothing, baby,