This Isn't What I Wanted At All

When i'm in bed
My regrets float overhead
And whisper to me
Tiny threats 'till my ears bleed
The promises that i can't keep sing me to sleep
When i awake the sun is fake
And every day just feels the same
Can't find the strength or find the words to say
Strait to my own face

Hey i see what i want and it's not what i want for me
I know what i'm not and it's not what i want to be

The mess i've made
Will be the headstone of this grave
Where i will stay
Within the comfort that i crave
From giving up and my heart finally stopping
There i will lay and contemplate the changes that i should have made
Internally regret is killing me
But i'm already dead

Hey i see what i want and it's not what i want for me
I know what i'm not and it's not what i want to be
I can't find no i can't find my place
I can't find no i can't find my way