I felt my skin crack, from being left out in the cold
The years made me feel so small, watching everyone grow up as I grew old

I felt my heart harden with the bark on the trees
As everyone that I once loved slipped through my arms like a bitter winter breeze
A chilling reminder

I never thought I’d have the heart to tell you every truth I’ve locked away
But now these fears won’t cease to ache inside my brain
You brought me up and hid me from the torment of this cruel world and now
Like a son without his mother, I face this hell with nowhere to turn
I fac

It’s so hard to see the end when lately all I see is red in these eyes
For all of them, this forged composure is my disguise
If you could see behind these eyes, if you could crawl inside my mind
you’d see things you’d never speak of. You’d hold it all inside like me

Can someone

It’s like I’m caught in between the words you speak
And the expectations you keep out of reach
Over and over I try to see your point of view
So skewed towards keeping me beneath you

I lost my head trying to breathe underneath your gravity
I won’t reach out to hold a hand th

Stared into a white light and felt no reason to stay
You let the April breeze carry you away that day
And after two years, it’s still not easy to say, what I feel
When these thoughts of you bleed into my sanity

And the few times that we spoke seemed as if they were in confidenc

You can stay caught up in your fucking self
But understand I never needed your help
Pulled me down, now I don’t even know myself
So don’t you dare act like you cared about how I felt
Got sick of watching my life played out right in front of me
While I did nothing but try to f