Not The Life

Feel my heart
Do you think that it's cold?
'Cause something inside me
Is rearranging

Not again
Who am I with today
I won't remember
It doesn't matter

This is not the life I wanna live
This is not the man I wanna be

Help me stand
Otherwise I might fall
And tell everyone here
I'm not always like this

There's still time
I'll explain later
I know you won't
You never do
Oh but I'll leave after this

(I wanna feel)
I don't want to
(I wanna feel)
I don't want to think