Midnight

I’ve been on the brink for a couple weeks
I might just up and leave
Talking to myself, someone ring the bell
Can’t you see I’m on my knees?

All I need is, all I bleed is
Red, blue, gold, black and green
This place is full of demons
You wouldn’t believe it

But 19, 20, 21 had me speechless
This pipe dream had me in pieces
It might seem like I’m doing just fine on my on

But since 2015 I’ve been lying alone
With the world on my chest, stressed
I’m out of my depth, I’m a mess
Close to the edge, but it’s all for the best

I hope it’s all for the best
'Cause I’ve hardly got anything left
There’s no one around to tell me take a breath

There’s no one I know in the town I grew up in
There’s nothing except starlight, starlight
What a far cry from the fast life
All I really need is a
Fire on a dark night
And I’ll be alright

The days are getting harder
There’s no stardust in my pocket
I’ve been fighting off my evils
I’ve been wandering the darkness
As the days go on
London starts to look like Gotham

It’s midnight in the morning
And I waited up to see you smile
Dear starlight, I’m yawning
But I haven’t seen you shine in a while
It’s midnight in the morning
And I waited up to see you smile
Dear starlight, I’m yawning
But I haven’t seen you shine in a while

I should take things one day at time
I just don’t have the time
Between losing my mind
And acting like everything’s fine
Everything’s fine is a lie
I feel like I’m falling apart
Last summer had me bawling at stars
Last summer had me talking to God
Last summer wasn’t a walk in the park

Now there’s a fork in my path
I can either keep praying for a chance
Or I can give all of this up and get a start
On breaking my heart, it’s breaking my heart

It’s breaking me down
Should I even be staying in class?
The voices are loud
They’re screaming at me and I’m crumbling

Under a shroud of the slumber
It thunders and growls
It sunders and ploughs
I’m about to drown in the shadows, so hollow

Starlight the hallowed
All I need is you and a bottle
To get me off bottom
Then I’m back at it full throttle tomorrow
Tomorrow’s another day
I might run away

The days are getting harder
There’s no stardust in my pocket
I’ve been fighting off my evils
I’ve been wandering the darkness
As the days go on
London starts to look like Gotham

It’s midnight in the morning
And I waited up to see you smile
Dear starlight, I’m yawning
But I haven’t seen you shine in a while
It’s midnight in the morning
And I waited up to see you smile
Dear starlight, I’m yawning
But I haven’t seen you shine in a while