Harder To Pretend

It's hard to explain why I wanna die
But how can you say that, when you live a perfect life?
So don't say: You know just how I feel
I wish I could tell you how the cold water makes it so real

But I don't know why
Why I wanna drink all the time
But don't worry
'Cause I'll be fine

And no matter how many times
They tell you: Don't speak your mind
Well, it's better to say when you're at your end
'Cause it's harder to pretend

There's no-one to blame, cause it's no-ones fault
It's not out of anger, it's just that I've had enough
So call all my friends tell them I said
Thanks for the memories, they're ones that I won't forget

But I don't know why
Why I wanna drink all the time
But don't worry
'Cause I'll be fine

But know that no matter how many times
They tell you: Don't speak your mind
Well, it's better to say when you're at your end
'Cause it's harder to pretend
Harder to pretend

I guess it's time
Guess it's time for me to go
But if this is goodbye
I hope you know