Green Star

Garbed in misery, a mirror of my world, vomit still speckles my bib
Lowly imps of pity swarm like buzzards in the Sun
To lull me to sleep in my crib

I dream of you and then I dream of something else
I lust to be lustful once more
Recounting failures I have failed once again
The kismit I cannot ignore

Inside of this crates I have combed for days
For any small sliver, moments looped, replayed

I wanted to save you
I haven't the strenght to save us both
I long to be near you, your ship is now miles out from my coast

I still get your messages
No flikers of light will bring you back
What was almost blinding
Fades slowly to black

Alone, confused with a body I abused
Silenced by a monster in my pace
Defeat, passanger seat
Driver steals my voice and wears my face

I wanted to save you
I haven't the strenght to save us both
I long to be near you, your ship is now miles out from my coast

I still get your messages
They're useless but mean the world to me
Recalling my mother
Smiling down at the proud little boy I used to be

This river runs higher
To all I've ever desired
I washed up on porpose
Drowning on the surface

In envy of what he became, a dying green star