Fester

I don’t want the things I don’t say
To keep getting in the way
But I can’t stop keeping my mouth shut
Everything pours straight from my gut

It doesn’t matter anyway
Nothing that I could say
To make this hurt go away
So I’d rather sit in pain
Fester the sadness that I'm in
Up until I wear too thin
Finally let you in
Oh, I want to let you in

I’d rather keep it to myself
Brush it off, help it find a shelf
'Cause all these memories
Can’t be the death of me

I don’t like drinking to forget
But I don’t like the pain I'm in
And if it hurts worse every day
Can we ever feel ok?

It doesn’t matter anyway
Nothing that I could say
To make this hurt go away
So I’d rather sit in pain
Fester the sadness that I'm in
Up until I wear too thin
Finally let you in
Oh, I want to let you in

This is where the fear begins
I'm always scared in my own skin
I'm never telling anyone
The way I felt when you were done

I don’t want the things I don’t say
To keep getting in the way
But I can’t stop keeping my mouth shut
Everything pours straight from my gut

It doesn’t matter anyway
Nothing that I could say
To make this hurt go away
So I’d rather sit in pain
Fester the sadness that I'm in
Up until I wear too thin
Finally let you in
Oh, I want to let you in