Contempt & Defeat

I've spent years tending these absent arteries
Eroding by your side has never felt so hard for me
Contempt & defeat, the fuel that my body
Seems to seep and bleed

I'm caught in this void I created on my own
I can't stand another second living this routine
Bearing this weight has left me bare to the bone
I can promise you that this is killing me

I am still breathing
I'm stronger than I was the day before
All of these demons, I've picked them up
And threw them out the door
And I'll move forward
Tomorrow is another day to live
I'll never forget this
It's time to move on, it's time to forgive

And I know that you knew that it was killing me
I could not change the view
I sat for years in soil waiting for you to bloom
I only seemed to share these nights with the moon
It was you

Don't you forget I was there for you
Standing under the weight slowly shading blue
I wish that I could undo everything to do with you

What my eyes seemed to avoid
Was the flame singeing a void
Pouring smoke into your lungs
You were the song I wish I never fucking sung

I am still breathing
I'm stronger than I was the day before
All of these demons, I've picked them up
And threw them out the door
And I'll move forward
Tomorrow is another day to live
I'll never forget this
It's time to move on, it's time to forgive