Trick Up The Sleeve

I’m still watching the same old battle
That is being fought in the deafening silence in my head
Since it all began

It’s been so confused to get it
If I’m winning or losing, I just don’t care
Not anymore
Because

It’s again
In my hands
The trophy of the condemned!

I lost my soul in a bargain
But that’s part of the game

I’ve been wasting time painting boundary lines
That someone drew for me
It’s my turn
No more trick up the sleeve
I'll just roll the dice and start it all over again

It seems so far
Am I so far?