Relief (feat. Christina Rotondo)

So I’ll keep telling myself
I swear I tried, I swear I tried

Nothing left to say, nothing left to debate
You made me who I am today, and who I am I hate
Did you ever listen to me?
Did you ever hear me when I said I’m not okay?

If I could find some kind of relief, I’d burn the memories
Of everything I used to be
All I want is to fade away, and for you to forget about me

I can still feel you in my veins
I can’t block out the words you said
I know I caused you so much pain, I always did
But you’ve been speaking like you’re someone else
And I’ve given up on myself
Well you can take what’s left but there’s nothing left

I swear I tried, I swear I tried
I tried

If I could find some kind of relief, I’d burn the memories
Of everything I used to be
All I want is to fade away, and for you to forget about me

I’ll live my life on foreign thoughts, with fake smiles
Pretending I’ll be alright, and that I won’t hold on to the misery you left me
You made your bed and you slept in it, while I lost all my hope in everything
So tell me how you think it’s going to be
Cause you’re the one that lost their faith in me

Tell me how you think it’s going to be
You lost faith in the failure I turned out to be

You don’t even know why I still feel invisible
So act like you never cared, cause it feels good to be invisible
I know you’re right I was just wasted, how could you think I didn’t know
That I’d be the one left bleeding but I swear I tried, I swear I tried

You can take what’s left
Yeah you can take what’s left
You can take what’s left but there’s nothing left

I know you left to save yourself
So I’ll always blame myself