Destroying Transduction

I guess it's true - what i've always heard
we make ourselves feel better with hurtful words
and more times than i care to even know
we hurt the ones we love the most

forgiveness is what i'm looking for
but you don't owe me anything at all
it feels like i'm stabbing my own back
i can't believe i'm drowning in the words
i should not own

and so this day I make a vow
to never open my mouth
against another living soul
be it friend or foe

but is this real
or empty conviction?
just another good idea
because I'm a Christian?

just to make sure
i'll cut out my tongue
destroy the transducers
and make myself numb

destroy the transducers