Beautiful Disguise (feat. S0cliché)

I'm breaking apart as we go
I've never seen down this road
As the cracks are seeping in
Please, help me within
Maybe it's all over my head
Feeling like this is the darkest of dread
That I cannot escape
Trade my life if I could save you

What have I done
Who have I become
Staring right back at the edge of the gun
What if I stay
Look the other way
Saving myself at the end of my days
But know this ain't the end
Fill my heart with love and suspense
Where were you
When I tried

Cast your stones, they don't hurt
I'm here at the stake where I like to burn
And it seems like a problem
I'm drinking this solvent
To fight off my demons
Though I want to call it
Too much of an addict
A sick alcoholic
I live in disease
Because there’s no cure
Wounded wasted
Hating this basement
The change in your faces
Don't tell me I'm pure
I fought angels
Through pleasures and mangers
I wanted the dangers
And I was so sure

What have I done
Who have I become
Staring right back at the edge of the gun
What if I stay
Look the other way
Saving myself at the end of my days
But know
This ain't the end
Fill my heart with love and suspense
Where were you
When I tried