Brain dead dumb fuck everything is fucked up
No good introvert, dirty little pervert
I'll never be what I need to be

Swinging in the air with my feet off the ground
Bobbing in the sea while my limbs are bound
I'll be the moth in your flame, I'll burn up as you fade away

Every time I pull myself up it drags me down
Even if I learn to expect it I never quite get used to it
Where the hell will this take me?
Will I ever have control?
When everything catches up with me and starts over when I thought it was gone

Cure this, let me go
Stop it

I'll settle for this - my ignorant bliss
I'm becoming more satisfied we're stuck in this mess
But it's ok I know you're always there
Don't hate yourself for knowing less, you can't fail an imaginary test
Just give the abortion now, 20 years late
And I will show you who you ar

So here we are again, another digit down the line
There's nothing new to say or feel so just watch the time go by
And I feel a sudden sickness grasp it's claws around my brain
Knowing everything we've said and done and yet this year too is the same
Oh I'm so sick of moving forwar

Ugly as sin, I know
You don't need to remind me
I have to live in this shell
So don't you complain to me
A freak by definition
Just look at the state of me
There's nothing anyone can do
So I'll keep hiding myself
I don't need reminding

I wish it all was just

I don't need to breathe
But I need some certain circumstances before I can leave
So I bite through the words that I can't say
Then I fall through the feelings I don't have the words to explain
I'm so far away
I can hide inside
Crawling round in circles, drowned by the tid

For all the broken things i've done
All the trying to make it numb
Now my doors are bolted shut, and my windows are boarded up
I don't want anyone to hear, but still my words won't stop

I'm sorry it took so long
I'm sorry I'm not so strong
Every thought brings so much p

I knew what to do and I did it wrong
Just one simple task but instead I stumble on
When the past comes to haunt me I just try to forget
That all this is falsified and bathed in regret
Just one thing can save me now
One last scream and I'm breaking out
No final lie for was

I'm always looking for a reason to leave
I'm a pathetic little drop in a stream
So I'll sit here and bleed my life away with these words
Sometimes I wanna fall down, sometimes I feel I'm dead on my feet
I wanna tell you how I feel but I'd break your heart
With the suicidal so