"We have the same feelings that we have had."
I knew what was different when my skin didn't crack
My callouses didn't burn
My stomach didn't sink
I just internalized the loss. Embraced the weakness
Toe to toe with "one day at a time"
It has become as routine as watching y

There is a certain way we move these chains
Like a watch in a box that doesn't tell time but instead just gives it
It all starts to bleed into miles that separate
Or phone calls that aren't on pace
Like the chemicals my grandfather gave me
Disarrayed and misconstructed
Th

There are no mistakes. Only decisions
The choices that you choose to make
And the night that you saw them choose (the way I watch you choose)
You described it as a "physical pain" in your spine
I watched your spirit break
I felt the collapse of my mental complex as my head hi

There is no binary understanding
These wolves can breathe but talk is fucking cheap.
No one breathes for anything but flavors of the week.
From coast to coast you will find me here in this coup alone.
For years we’ll roam, these are our hours wasted afloat.
I swear to (god)

The love fades against a color's change
The loss shakes against the cold
Tearing pieces from my decrepit skin
Just to try and keep you warm

Nameless.
This depressive disgust comes in cycles.
The same conversations, the same faces
Words of worth engulfed in dirt.
All of my substance lost in long winded give ins.
But the days keep getting longer
We forgive each other.
Forgive me.
We hang onto threads th

I have never felt as empty as I feel today
Even when the moment's beauty fades in and away
That's all it is, a moment
And the images creep back into the forefront of my brain
From picking up the pieces of unearthing devotion
Re-energizing dead feelings

I can see the flo

"When hands are caught in my brother's pocket, I'll burn my gods down."

Within this house of do-it-your-selfishness
The blurred lines we're taught to walk don't suit me
Words out of both sides of broken mouths
The only words that stand to rule me
High brass rings and low gl

The faith in me runs thinner then the water rising to my eyebrows
Slowly but surely i am drowning in the wistful body i call my own.
New days bring new dreams to there knees
Searching for something, nothing, anything.
Hands clenched together in praise while the rhythm pulls away<

Nails scratching at floorboards begging to stay
A pathetic attempt to break from the world
Stagnant in my own selfish love unreturned.
Spending everyday praying for the end of a life
Just as shallow as the cowards i surround myself with.
And it pounds away.
Knowing that i

An untimely shell of anything that i am
(bloody knuckles and skin cracked hands)
Nothing to comfort me. no one will come for me
(swallowed by something bigger, cogs in a larger machine)
The last bastion has burned down.
The concrete cracked below my feet.
Confidence shove

Embrace me
I am a machine
Erase me
Bring down the gates
We carry this weight.
Days fall away.
Leave me. let me in.
Begin again (i swear i can't)
"this is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper"

Swallow the truth
Let it digest in your empty stomach
The lies of circumstance in circumference to the shape of the dead land.
The sky laughed unreluctantly as my skin turned to peregrine and my mind set to sea.
(magnetic embrace)
Seasons change as the perpetual pendulum swin

I'm starting to let things slip
I'm starting to let things slip in
Like water through an open window
Like leeches sucking at our skin
These maggots always have their say
These cowards always have to win
These has-beens love to grasp at straws
They feed the selfish bea

As serenity floods//driving my brain in circles
Humility reminds me to just let the composure be
God grant me the power to know the things I can change
The things I can't
And the difference
But this pain has a face. Vilified. Unstricken
Deeper than what my soul can give//

Just jealous gods and mechanical insects, (pathetic)
Hair raising accounts of the future.
Thoughts of reflection and silence and infest,
These meetings wont satisfy all my instincts
Lowest of the lows, i can't rely on myself,
Enough is enough, spirits dust off the serpents.

Break me into something worth it
More than the heads of statues
Even if the trend reconciles itself I will still wake up wishing I didn't
So maybe instead I'll choke on these anti-anxiety pills
So I don't have to swallow the flavor of life floating away
In your hands against

So relentless in spite of the turns and the breath and the vomit
Carve out the pit of my stomach.
This is the world that we have painted and shunned.
As worms breed they succeed to do the things that I couldn’t.
Reach all the maggots that nested inside her
touch all the nerve

I keep forgetting the things that I have felt so easily
With the wind it all brushes off of me
Into the holes in my teeth
So I'll spend the rest of my life in structures and colors
The shape of what your face used to mean
In a box, laden with the ones still here

Cutting

It's the nerves that keep this breeding
And sometimes when I'm sleeping I can hear it breathing in my dreams
"It's the pills I took, to bring it off, she said"
April is coming more easy and when it rains it pours
But it knows the reality that once we break in certain ways nothing