Fuck

Well where is there room made for growth
When I walk on a thin frayed rope
I keep testing my balance in hopes that my feet will find ground that’s more solid
(I’ll swallow my words whole again)
Fight my own will of choking
Cause all my shortcomings leave me short o

Live fast way before it ends
'Cause I don't wanna have to think about it then
I don't wanna take the chance of never doing it
Repeat of the past, I tried avoiding it

This one's for the shortly lived
For the one's who never got a chance to win again
I don't wanna rest un

It takes one piece
To crumble down the walls and find peace
Undo the damage done to my state
And all that wasted breath
Couldn't amount to an accomplishment

And I'll just wait around
For something big to show
But nothing ever comes
Just patience and an afterglow

I'll tear myself apart
But I guess
That's the only way I know how to deal with this stress
Coming fast
Looking over my shoulder
It feels like I'm living with these problems over and over

I digress
'Cause I'm not focusing
On what's best
For myself as far as I

I've been out of touch
Losing feeling but the pain I used as my crutch
There's nothing left inside my head like there ever was
There's a reason I won't bend I won't ever budge

I think back honestly
On every time I didn't live my life with honesty
Cause that's not who I

You think that you can just count me out?
No indecision left to think about?
I'm done with keeping silence in my mouth
This thoughtless drought is so out of touch with the things you confide in
You play games in your head
While I'm stuck losing them
Hold your knife to my

Forced in place
Wouldn’t have it any other way
Looking for the things to say
Forced in place
This isn’t how it’s ever supposed to be
I’m lying to myself

Cuz I hold things back
While I preach no cap
What a whack mindset
What I wouldn’t give to quit

Cuz

So who have I become?
A nervous wreck obsessed with second guessing myself
And it’s getting harder to keep still
'Cause I’m so sick of walking when my lungs are begging me to run
So don’t act like I’m not choking while you drown
A picture perfect image that isn’t clear

Who have I become?
A nervous wreck obsessed with second guessing myself
(And it’s getting harder to keep still)
And I’m so sick
Of walking when my lungs are begging me to run

So don’t act like I’m not choking while you drown
A picture perfect image that isn’t clear

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I've been living real fast
Living everyday like it could just be my last
Cause I know
Everything you think you put in the past
Always finds a way to come around and kick you in the ass
But that's cool

I can see
That everybody talks everybody talks like they know

I’m pushing past my stitched shut lips to speak about the same old shit
Like how we’re growing up but going nowhere
I’m sick of all this lust we breath but my lungs just need consistency
Yet I’m different than when you first knew me

I’m so drained from all my yelling cuz my whi

I'll say goodbye
To what I thought I knew it meant to be alive
Run back and forth inside my head
I've been counting every reason just to try and make this all make sense
But I keep on coming back with all these
Wounds to stitch
No room to switch
All my panic into some

Guilty

I didn't know this was inside of me
But here I am a broken shell again
From picking pieces off the floor
I feel like I've been here before

I keep on living day by day
I'm losing all of my friends
I'm losing control again
I'm living desperately
I'm h

Dead weight
I'm only losing ground
By running all around with your
Dead weight
And I keep wasting so much of my own time
Searching for words that I can't find
Dead weight

(Take it back)
Take it back
Taking back all of the things that I regret
Losing trac

You're first to mind yet last to call
Uncertain hands fill out the fall
Attached to all my biggest flaws
I sink below the water top
I can't break this bad routine
I'm sleep-deprived, my brain's a brawl
No conscious thought is found at all

Stick around, don't fade aw

There's a million things about me that never quite add up
But what's an empty shelf without it's dust?
Why do I remain so oblivious?
To the empty air in my lungs that keeps happiness lust

I'm abusing my mind reusing old lines to speak about the future from the past
Where I

I'm hollowed out where a bright crux used to be
I'm shredding my skin like you wouldn't believe
I couldn't help myself, I just needed to grieve
While I lived vacant in a memory

(Backtrack)
Never thought I'd ever be back
(Think fast)
Never thought I'd ever be last

I'm living fast
I won't fight my past
So I can find a way to pull myself up
Out of this hell
I built for myself
It's hard to believe I know
But that's the fantasy
I filled up with fallacy
I don't think it's right for me
To force things selfishly

I know a

I'm running out of time
And left here indecisive stuck feeling so lifeless
Too busy stumbling through the pain with all my vices
I'm steady handing out my vengeance like it's priceless
I'm digging up roots and tying them into a noose
My constant strife has found a place to gr

Living life in a fantasy
I can't help myself when I lose the ground beneath me
And I'm finding nothing underneath
Heavy heart, I just drown myself
In a sea of thoughts that I can't seem to get out of now
Am I stuck in hell
Can I just come up to breathe?

Pressure