Traitor

It was an accidental mishap that started it all
But no turning back
I felt cheated by the way that they eloquently
Interrogated me
I could see just what they wanted
And to avoid confrontation
Shied away from the truth
Allowed to go I realised
In haste I'd left just lies behind

Oh lord, will you
Hold me, cradled in the palm of your hand
As I, I hear your voice
Still I don't understand
Why you, you care for me
A traitor who's returned
Again

You gave your life so unselfishly up for me
Though I never asked you
You have never turned your back on me despite the fact
I do it frequently
Lord, you know I love you
I adore you
I live for you, Jesus
Please, help me with consistency
I don't understand
Why I can't live like you command
Full of love
Like you have for me