Not Today

A thought of you that often grows in my dreams
As years pass on I can't divide myself from what I've done
I should start everything all over again
Just open my eyes and separate me from this

But the burden is framed within me, eternally
With the same consciousness
Of what I decided to keep to go on
It's all I ever known
Pouring my ink to fill it, my inner book
I got blank pages on

And going on is painful as looking back
Understanding what I left someday somehow

Looking at the scars that still burns
How I wish it was all that easy
Bringing solace deeply, how I wish I could
The rain keeps falling on these streets
As tears that cover my face with regret
That help retrieving the letters I can't forget
Motionless I pose
Accepting the mobility of reason
It's a selfish prison

You know, I fall into the void of weakness

The reason why
They hold on saying (they say you learn everyday)
I rather say (that I don't feel like growing up today)

Still picking up the pieces
Of times where I was down again
Make them a part of myself
I'll rebuild me
While days are
Standing still
I'm getting through them
I'll rebuild me