HIGH/BYE

Growing up is like growing
Into a plastic mould you don't fit in
But at the same time you're
Being torn limb from limb
And you can feel the walls
Crushing you skin
Like a vacuum being attached
To a plastic bag
You're watching yourself
Shrink from within
And I've been so compliant
I keep lying, I've been trying to get out
Of this grey space between two lives
But everybody's dying

Did you lie about being bi?
Do you still get high?
And, oh fuck, the years have gone by
But you don't say hi anymore

Real life is too understimulating for my generation
Stopping at the shops at one a. M
'Cause I forgot to eat again
And you guys all went to uni
And made loads of friends and did loads of drugs
And I stayed at home, and I got a job
Now I'm staring at my phone waiting for a call

Did you lie about being bi?
Do you still get high?
And, oh fuck, the years have gone by
But you don't say hi anymore

I thought I could see stars out of my window
But it turns out that it was light
Refracting out of somebody else's home onto
Tiny raindrops, tiny droplets of water trying to make
The faintest impression on people
The faintest impression in an ocean

Did you lie about being bi?
Do you still get high?
And, oh fuck, the years have gone by
But you don't say hi anymore

Walking to work and there
And men spitting on the floors
Knocking on doors standing outside the pub
Cigarette in one hand, beer in the other
Nothing ever happens here
And nothing ever will
Grab another beer and find a
Will to live, it's a safe space
Painted with faces grey, but
No one ever makes it out of
Here alive anyway

About being bi?
Do you still get high?
And, oh fuck, the years have gone by
But you don't say hi

Lie about being bi?
Do you still get high?
And, oh fuck, the years have gone by
But you don't say hi anymore