Goodbye

I sit i'm my room claustrophobic, as i watch the walls breath succumbing to self pity, and these voices wont leave. I got a revolver in my hand with six chambers and they all full, every bullet contradicts the contemplation of suicide. I wanna die. So i sit and clinch my bible until my palms sweat, and blister, cause i hate my sister. First i'm gonna light a candle in the form of a seance, and see the light on the wall reflect all this childhood neglect. I cock the hammer, i let the steel touch my tongue and taste the metal for the first time, i see the faces of my loved ones, but fuck a note, cause when i do it, i want it to be a mystery, and let them feel the same pain that i felt, this is the remedy.

goodbye, sad days, id rather sleep my life away goodbye, heartbreak, i found my own way, suicide

i get on my knees and say a prayer, i tell god that i cant handle all this pressure, i wanna kick it up there. Why should i wanna live? When my mother used to molest me in front of my stepfather, she beat me and he undressed me, see. He took my manhood before i became a man, so now i sit here at 16 with this gun in my hand. Death is the only way out, the murder of myself will show em all the theres a way out, i cry for my soul. Depression has taken a toll on my every existence, so when i think of humiliation i cant breathe, its time to leave. Cause i'm gone show what you did, for tormenting me as a kid, you raised me, now look what i did

goodbye, sad days, id rather sleep my life away goodbye, heartbreak, i found my own way, suicide
i don't wanna die, i wanna breathe again, i don't wanna have to say.....

goodbye, sad days, id rather sleep my life away goodbye, heartbreak, i found my own way, suicide
my soul is slipping away, i don't wanna leave, not in this way