Feeling Better

You don't fathom me, I thought
For a while it's just because I didn't make any sense
If it's hard for me to speak, I'm sure
It's not because there's nothing left here for me to tell
 
So marry me then leave me on the kitchen floor
You can still get lost
When you know what you're looking for
Or burry me and wash away the dirt from your hands
I'm tired of trying to figure out
What you'll never understand
 
And if I throw myself into the river
To help you keep your head above the water
What strength will I have left
To not drown together?
 
I might beg you not to leave, abandonned
I sometimes feel like I can't go through all of this alone
What's mine? What's yours? What did we do wrong?
Walk the wire between our worlds, try not to lose myself
 
We love each other only the best we can
Through strengths and through flaws
Surrendering all we have
If you could only walk a mile in my shoes
Might be easier to let go
And for this love to lose
 
And if I hide my head in the sand
To avoid my reflexion in your eyes
The mirror might be dustier
But I'm not uglier
 
And if I throw myself into the river
To help them keep their heads above the water
What strength will I have left
To not drown together?
And if I hide my head in the sand
To avoid my reflexion in their eyes
No matter how loudly they applaud
I won't feel any better