Choosing Myself

Let me finish, let me finish talkin'
Let me get this off my chest
I'm no stranger, you know me well
But it feels like we just met
I'm just tryin' to cope with the impossibilities
I wish were possibilities
Feels like I'm in a dream
I know you say you want me, but you're too afraid of happy
That hurts me, it scares me, but this is reality
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
Tellin' me lies (tellin' me lies)
Like I'm makin' this up (makin' this up)
Like this is insanity
Sometimes my mind plays tricks, (mm-hmm), this ain't reality
Sometimes my mind is playin' tricks on me

I won't believe it
I won't believe it, not for one second
I don't believe it
I don't believe it, but I still have questions
I wanna believe you (I want to believe you)
But you're not helping
Wish you were see-through (I wish you could see me)
Wish I could see you

I just want you
I wish that I could free your mind
I just want you
Sometimes I wish that we could just rewind time
What if I never knew, oh, ooh
What if I just want you
And I want you to want you, too
I just want you
I'm hoping that you'll change your mind (change your mind)
I'm praying you'll try to try
To be happy for once
You deserve to be happy for once
I just want you to be happy for once
Didn't you come alive (I just want you)
When you looked in my eyes? (when you looked in my eyes)
I just want you
I saw you come alive
I just want you
You can just choose, you can decide

I'm so afraid to lose you
That I'm losing myself
I'm so afraid to choose you (I'm so afraid to choose you)
So I'm choosing myself (so I'm choosing myself)
I'm so afraid to lose you, mm-hmm
'Cause I'm finding myself in you
Still everyday that I choose you, mm-hmm
I'm choosing myself
Deep down you'll remember, me
But even if you don't choose me (I just want you)
I'm choosing myself (I just want you)
I'm choosing myself
It's about time, didn't we come alive?
Don't make me choose by myself

I pray that you'll chose me, I know that it's confusing
Please say that you'll choose me
Just make up your mind this time
This time
I pray that you'll choose me, say that you'll choose me
I'm choosing happy, the real me
I'm choosing the freedom I feel when I look in these eyes (say that you'll choose me)
I want the true me (say that you'll choose me)
I'm choosing myself