Child At Heart (And In Practice)

I'm still like a child in oh so many ways
More ways than you I'm sure
And that’s why I’ve reached this point
Where I am smothered and dampened
In my own skin
Can't even remember what it’s like to be a bird on a wire
Wire in the city, tall post far away from all the hard working people

I need time
It takes me such time
But still look me in the eye and ask more seriously
Don’t hesitate to stop this train 'cause folks believe in you
And we that believe all have our own vices
Smothered and dampened in our own ways
I have years and years of undoing to do
And it’s a lonely road to respect
It's two steps forward and two steps back
Leaving me where I started
A child at heart and in practice

All we can do is try to make beauty
I feel the tugs on my heart strings so hard
And so selfishly in all directions
I hate what you play
But I can't help but love when my heart strings get tugged
I splurge every day
But it gets me no closer to knowing I'm loved
When lay people work on their bodies so hard I double take it
But they’ve got a kick in the ass from behind
And a spine that can take it