And so I'm here now, I used to be there
It was before that I was unhappy
Now I'm just numb
And now I can't leave
I just sit in my room
With only cigarettes to kill my time
I'll be fine, I'll be alright
One more day off my life
On more niche to chisel in the wall

Someone killed my son
With a heavy gun
They shot and wore him down
Now frown
Cause I'm a callous prick
Are you a treat or trick?
Oh do I make you sick?
I'm proud!
Come on feel this pride
Like Satan's bride
Like a heavy tide, you drown
Wanna frown on me

What if I could
But I'm bad I wanna be good
I'm sad but I'm happy for you
Wish you didn't do what you did
Broken nerve is sacred law
And I've heard everyone. Hello
Bad ties in a river
Wish upon a fish beneath
Oh my tears dear mother
You're greater than we know

Sitting here alone again
Empty room is my oldest friend
Lend me your ear
Pretend that you hear me
My heart won't sweat my tear

Open up the door again
Pull my through to that one room
I'll swim in the great sound drone
I'll sit on my invisible throne

Pull m

Tony got shot at the Mexican border
Leaving his past far behind his leg
He could run fast
But he knew they would catch him
They're gonna find me out some day, some day
But Tony tried, and he denied, but he relied
On the wrong person
And he made his own way
But now

From ripe to rotten
To real, to live
Should I lie down or stand up
And walk around again?

My eyes finally wide open up
My eyes finally wide open shut
To find the fount of sound
That hears the touch of my tears
Smells the taste of all we waste
Could feed the

Sittin' here, in this room
Window's open, tv's on
Sky is gray, and that's ok
It's not ok, are we ok?

Sit and think of dreams last night
The water wave they couldn't save
Father or man, I can't understand
I couldn't understand, I don't understand

The journey of

My fear is clouding all that's clear...
Clear, clear
My fear is clouding all that's clear
My fear is clouding all that's clear

I think of you floating in there
And not a shred of thought or care
Of where you're from or will be
Swimming inside the stomach of my baby
Little fetus went to meet us With your first swallow of air
Hollow lungs sucking on all of the world's despair
I fiend for more, I fi

Hey, Joe, where you goin' with that gun in your hand?
Hey, Joe, where you goin' with that gun in your hand?
I'm goin' down to shoot my old lady
you know I caught her messin' 'round with another man
I'm goin' down to shoot my old lady
you know I found her, found her messin' 'r

Hey you
What do you want me for you?
I needn't be an appeal to you
I am behind your door
You don't even know
What you feel
You ask for more
You just need more
Children keep a score
What do you think
We do that before

Raven to forming masses
Into

I'm sincere in a cheap hotel room
So this is what it's come to?
I'd love to say it takes a different way
that hasn't actually come true

This is so confusing and thoroughly amusing
My heart is bruising, only thoughts of you
And this is so degrading and I'm just waiting

Lesson learned, learned today
My lesson learned, I learned this today
I'm too close to stay away
I'm too far to try and stay
Oh hurt me slowly, I feel your beauty
In every pulse of your sacred heart
Oh easy, easy, watch your cruelty
I felt it faintly from the start

Something in my food, on this
I'm a wild man, but I don't wanna war
I'm what the fuck is wrong with you?
I thought you wanted take it, what you gonna do?

Native american
Cause I'm a native american
Cause I'm a native, native, native american
Cause I'm a native ameri

Angels border
Lovely daughter
Which we up now
Wild wild what have's?
Ask me those questions
Clear is inception
Non is confessions
Hear my listen

Soothing knowledge
Of my nothing
Soothing knowledge
Of nothing
Nothing

Swiming, but through

Sit now quiet
Edge of forbidden nerve
Concentrate focus
We are better
The mirror zombie
Spirit of the ego
You are as heavy as the air
It's nice to meet you
Wanna tell you
You don't exist

The earth is my witness
The earth is our witness
The earth

In the back of the drumshop 'castle in the sand'
I met a man I called him crazy eyes he was half blind
He was like the sunshine, he was kind
He said come back, sit on my rough
We would drink tea, he asked about me
So where are u from?
I said New York
He said wow? Sew

Just droning.

August 24th 2004 (2004)
It's the first morning of our little experiment.
(It's the first morning)
I'll try and write a little bit each day
but I don't know if I can be consistent.
(I'm never consistent)
It's hard for some reason
while I'm maki

I never been here before but I'm home today
And I dont know where I am but I know the way
I never met you before but I remember yet
I wanna make my home right where I sit

I never met you and yet I remember you

I'm gonna build a fire
I'm gonna watch that it burn
I'

Listen, my new friend, please
And have a sympathetic tender ear
I was born in this junkyard
And it was the prettiest little thing to me
Here's the part in the song
Where you think of me all wrong
And here's the part where I choose
That I got nothing left to lose 'caus