Fourteen and I'm thinking about God again
In the back of our car, everyone is so far from me
Seventeen and I'm feeling so out of place
I've been moving too much
And lately, I've been running round in circles everyday

And I've turned off a part of me
That I can't find an

There are days when I feel like the world comes crashin'
I've been numbin' the pain just to keep distracted
Of all the things that would fade, you're the one that's lasted
So darling, when I'm insane and I'm overreactin'

Please, go easy, my heart is heavy
I don't mean to hu

Started before I could even remember
Praying to God that I don't feel the hurt
Every time I end up broken or worse
Falling for everyone that I shouldn't
Burning my life down for it to work
Maybe I'm realizing that love's not really worth it

Saying that I didn't know tha

I saw someone who looks just like you
In the back seat with her hand out the sunroof
I swear it was the dress that I gave you
And I wonder if your favorite color still blue?

And you're full of love, and wild and free
Chasin' every dream and possibility
You're more than

Lyin' awake at four in the mornin'
Losing our breath when all we've done was talk
And this hurts better than makin' out in the back of a car
When I was fifteen and thought I was in love
I found it now

But your heart has held a place
Should I hope that it can change?

I was hardly in the back of the bus, and I couldn't figure it out
There was nineteen, maybe twenty of us, felt like I could just do without
It's like a bad dream, tryna keep my eyes shut and I'm starting to doubt
If I find lightning in a bottle, 'cause I've never had anyone

So,

I started dreamin' of a different life
A moment everything just went right
Instead of feelin' like I'll die alone
I think about it and I lose my mind
I've never had a night where I don't scream and cry
I'm beggin' the world to tell me what I've done

'Cause I can't lose

I've been tryna keep my distance
But in an instant, you break me down
I know better than to want you
But I succumb to you without a doubt

Now the water is rising
And I'm too tired to swim
And my lungs just can't take it
But I keep breathing you in, so

Tell me

Remember that time I made you laugh
I would give in to hear that sound again
Missing the lines on both sides of your face
And I hate that that's all I have now
Am I just fixing it just to break it?
Am I just hanging on, just so we can drown?
Like the love we thought we fo

You came home one night, fallin' up the stairs to the door
We saw it in your eyes, there's someone we've never seen before
And you started a fight just to put tear in our eyes, now it's floodin' the floor
Did you, really love us but didn't know how to?
Did you burn down the house

Wakin' up in the morning's hard
I miss you even though it don't make sense
It's hurting in my chest to breathe
When all I see are stories of our love
So hard, but it was not enough

I'm going out to a party
And the only thing they're askin's how you are
Saying I'm ok

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Let your heart be light
From now on your troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Make the Yuletide gay
From now on your troubles will be miles away

Here we are as in olden days
Happy golden days o

When you're movin' at a pace and leave before it started
It's hard to take a break when you don't know what's important
Am I too far gone to stay?
Will I ever wanna change?
If I went another way, would it be different?
If I had the other say, would I had listen?
It's all

Empty streets now, where we used to love
Our hearts out but now I'm dancin' all alone
Scared to go out on my own
This calmin' feeling faded into anxious breathin'
In the places we were happy once
Stuck inside but never home

And if I lose it all, in the blink of an eye

I remember the way you looked at the world and adored it
You sit in the corner of every room but still light up the moment

And I've been dreaming about the day you tell me that you want me back
But hearts don't fit, even if we love so hard we know there's no coming back

And I

Oh, I'm obsessed
With the way your head is layin' on my chest
How you love the things I hate about myself
And no one knows, but with you, I see hope again

Oh, I'm a mess
When I overthink the little things in my head
You seem to always help me catch my breath
But the

Holding my breath, playing pretend
Acting like you'll never hurt me again
And why does your love come with a punch
That I'll keep takin' again and again?

How many times will you apologize
And say that you're ready to change?

I wish I could hate you
For breaking me

You should probably keep it to yourself
I don't need to know about the way that you're running 'round
Getting down with somebody else
I know that I said I wish you well
But you don't need to throw it in my face that you're happy now
Happier with somebody else

And someth

I woke up crying for a reason I don't know And these days I'm living on my bathroom floor And it feels like I don't have another choice Mmmmm, mmmmm, mmmmm I wanna run away and never look back

Stone cold, where have you been?
On hold, where are my things?

I’ve been looking for a way out of here
While my soul begins to disappear
All you do is try to bring out my fears
Oh, I understand that you’re not near

To what I hope for you to be
What I deserve is mo