UCLA

Often I find myself stuck somewhere I don't want to be
I'm starting to think that there's something really wrong with me
I don't really go out much I mostly stay at home
But if I don't go out sometime soon I'll probably die alone

I must confess I am oh so afraid
Times running out and I think its far too late
I'm looking for a girl that was never even born
The death of a fantasy that is far too pitiful to mourn

I never cared about politics and the bullshit of it all
I don't care about anything my opinion is just too small
I've walked around the entire world and I would do it twice
I'm still looking for something that's missing from my life
And I don't even know what I'm looking for and I ask myself why
I feel so sad all the time but I can rarely cry
I know I have to love myself before someone else loves me
Believe me I've been really trying but its just not that easy

I just wish that I had a normal brain
Without the constant anxiety that drives me insane
Maybe one day I will end up just fine
And I will no longer feel so dead inside

Now I know that I don't have to be afraid
And now I know it's not too late it's gonna be okay
I cannot wait for when you are here with me
When I can finally feel completely at ease