Seventeen

Woke up today with my candles already burning
Must be something about this life I didn’t live
Half a month suddenly turned into three dozens
Ages started going up relentlessly

I didn’t watch the world burn, the world burn
To end up having nothing so genuine
Never asked for goodness in return
All I hoped was to be young and wild, and free

Can I be seventeen?
That’s all I want to do
I wanna go outside
I wanna feel alive

Wasted my time practicing on being too good
To be true, I’d enjoy better bitterness
To out feel the bitter feelings I’ve been feeling
Out of nowhere ‘cause I’ve only been in here

I stayed waiting for my turn, for my turn
Night and day dreaming in a desolate room
Though I’ve only been damaged in these terms
Of wondering what if none of this was the truth

Can I be seventeen?
Is that so hard to do?
I wanna make mistakes
I wanna feel okay

I'm not special, but I'm different
I have changed before my eyes
It’s not normal, to be so young
Be compelled to realize

No new settings, but new settings
Maybe someone to rely
But that doesn’t erase the fact
That I lost my teenage mind

Oh, how I miss myself

Can I be seventeen?
If I still got the right
I’ve waited for too long
I wanna be a kid, for once

For now
Oh, oh, oh