Once Upon A Time

Once upon a time, I didn’t love myself
Coming to mind, how could I love someone else
Gotta get to what’s mine, the core inside, the essence
Otherwise, there’s time but no presence

I'm the king and I know it into the depth of my cells
Been everything to fine women, fine when it comes to the shelf
Psychotic hoes are glorified, it actually sells
Like it’s so hot with women with a lack of mental health, no

They speak about a broken heart
But that’s a heart in two, my parts are so far apart they can’t renew
If I’ve argued with you, or even bothered to tell you the truth
It’s cause some part of me actually guarded you

That’s how you’re protected, I go farther for you
Smart with my selection of people, apart from a few
Sometimes the only reference to pull is the fact
You do what feels right at the time it happens, and that’s that

Close your eyes at night, make up with your concepts here
Wake up with a clear sight when your conscience’s clear
They say the devils in the details, but tell me where
The only monsters here is the one we see in the mirror

Cast a spell for hell to disappear
Can’t believe I fell for believing hell was anywhere else but here
Stairway to heaven, but I can’t find the stairs
So many different levels, different energy fields

I can walk in a room and tell exactly who’s there
Can feel the mood, who to be near and what to beware
For real, because I'm aware
And that’s the difference between me and you I'm true to my feels

They say: You gotta keep it real
Sounding hood, but what’s the meaning if you’re not really sincere?
If you’re faker than your crocodile tears or the smile that you wear
Then we know it’s because you wanna sound good

But don’t let me be the one to stop this charade
A bunch of dumb motherfuckers on this walking parade
Because I'm numb to most of you, and all that you say
I'm the truth so you don’t get passed the small talk or a hey

I’ve had people believe in me who barely heard about me
And then who I’d see as family who’d be the first to doubt me
And you wonder why the fuck I got my head held high
Chest out 'cause if you don’t vouch for me know I will do it proudly

You made me loose faith, and use hate
You gave me new ways, when it was too late
You have me constantly, caught between
Two different roads where one is thoughtfully

Planned out, the other one is possibly
Headed towards a place where probably
Every decision made, gave astoundingly
Horrible repercussions, I solemnly

Swear to never repeat the same mistake
I learned my lesson, time to take my fate
Into my own hands, understand
Non of this commotion alternated my stance

I kept on telling myself and those around
I got this figured out, I got profound
Ideas and dreams, my fear it seems
To force me to a stalemate by any means

You’re the reason I became traumatized
To the point I sat, almost paralyzed
Feeling terrified to even go outside
All this time I thought I tried to