Never Numb Enough

For all the broken things i've done
All the trying to make it numb
Now my doors are bolted shut, and my windows are boarded up
I don't want anyone to hear, but still my words won't stop

I'm sorry it took so long
I'm sorry I'm not so strong
Every thought brings so much pain
I miss everything

This is not a suicide poem
This is not a note
This is not a song and it will never come out how I intend it to
This is a eulogy for hope, a goodbye for self esteem
A funeral for anything that was once inside of me

I'm sorry there's nothing left to give
I'm sorry I can't just stay out of the way
When every thought reminds me of how it used to be
I miss everything
I miss everything
I miss everything too much