My Before, As I Was Less

Mental movie plays out in my head...Revealing
Nonstop scenes of life lay out ever so intricate.
As a tapestry of miscellaneous moments in time...My time.
My moments pieced together puppetted to my own wishes...
Willfully I am subjected...

This lucid state of dreams I am experiencing...is becoming tranquil.
The moments I witness, various moments of happiness.
So in love...So secure, my companion I miss....My children I Adore
How did this happen? How can I leave them...This can't be...

Inserted now, the scenes of Darkness and uncertainty...
I couldn't have been farther from control...
Pain and death Just another persons choice away.
How did I live in a way that was so delicate...so trusting?
Trusting that Morals are the rules to life.
Not just exaggerated opinions...I will miss them...

These pieces of time I am seeing in my mind...must stop.
Mentally weakening me...they are gone...they never existed.
I am true now...this is me...I must prepare for the coming.
No more attempts to stay human...I am not human.
We are more...I am more...

My anger grows...extreme hatred for that life...
I must destroy my recollection of these emotions.
These false, brittle ambitions that I am witnessing.
Forsake this theatrical display of pettiness.

I am no longer weak and blind.
I am no longer forced to settle for "that" way.
I am all...I am it...as for me...I am the End.
This is the end...

As these feelings of rage become permanent...
My mental scenes begin to blur and fade...
Adrenaline surges to my extremities.
My jaw clenches tightly...I am ready...bring the chaos.