Bad Word Turn

I don't feel like a man
A racing thought, the wreckage is irreversible
And still I search for something heavier
In the nightmare, that is my every thought
I'll take the grief you can keep the fear

I don’t feel like a man

I could walk in any place and turn it upside down with my mind
I get stronger the longer I'm away
Your hand aches, I tried, I tried, I tried
Some things can't be stopped without a police state

Bad word took a turn and I ended up face down in the dirt
There's nothing like being right or like being first

There's always another monster lurking in the earth
If you dig you're sure to find what you're looking for
There I remain, did you think I'd be prettier?
I can't help it if I'm the one the worms prefer
I don't feel like a man