I am lying here being dead
It feels like having sweet dreams
It does not hurt
I am tranquillised
From different sides I see me
Patiently I am awaiting
For what is soon to come
My carcass swallowed by nature
This process has just begun

Flesh gets wea

Here I am alone and fading away
A shadow of what I used to be
Who cares for me?
Am I still a part of humanity

Days go by
They seem like years

Each day
Is filled
With my
Old tears

Is there still a reason for me to stay?
Another season
Another

Castaways, abused and thrown away
Left to be a face without a name
Silently endure the pain and fear
Uncertainty is your destiny

Close your eyes
Fulfill the devil's needs forced to be
What you're not supposed to be
Torn apart between hate and fear
Angel smiles

My soul floats, after death
but where is heaven now?!
no golden gates, between clouds
no angel-harp harmonies
unconciously i realize
the house of god stayes hidden
they promissed me eternal life
how could it be a lie?!

i feel the presents near me
of thousand

I am broken - unstable mentally
Life has spoken - i want to flea into darkness
I want to be all alone
End it silently
Who's to blame for this misery
Who's to blame
For me

Lived my life
Inside me
End my future
To be free

What is life blaming yoursel

Dissolvent - From the inside out
Flesh corrodes - Mysterious ways
Liquid flows - From the inside out
Finds its way - To let the body unburden!

Eyes transform into liquid
Flow down the face like tears
The brain seeps slowly out
The head remains as empty skull<

Come home, come shelter safe and warm
They promise you passion, undying love
You'll give, they'll take
Until there's none
You think your nightmare's ended
It's just begun

To late, regrets
It's too late
They've got you entangled
Always
Exhale, inhale

Beleive in me and my insanity
The new born god, salvation that you seek
Reject your past
Live your life by my hand
Soon to behold my insande primised land

Those who will join, shall meet eternal peace
Drowning in faith and my insanity
Obey to me and every word I pre

Amputation
Cut off your limbs
Feel no pain
I show you how
And make you watch
As I consume it

A sick way
Of taking your life
Piece by piece
To make you all mine

I wait I let you heal
But hunger screams within me
Again I consume my me

Born at the wrong time
In the wrong place
Subhuman?
Danger to scoiety?
The elimination of those
Who don't know
Betrayal by those
You live with
No place in this world

No sense of humanity
No sense of life
The adult child has to die
A systematic de

See the world through my eyes
All you see is weakness
It's not a cause of insanity
It's a cause of pain
What's the use of life
If you want to be dead

I take my life in my own hands
Selfish thoughts?!

Suicide
The only way to escape from this life
Emptin

Takes his life
For he must die
To be with her
In endless time

Her face he sees still clearly
Her skin so soft and warm
No longer is she near him
Her tender smile is gone

They can not imagine
His pain and suffering
Each day he has to live
With only

What used to be a normal life
Has turned into a hell
It all happened so fast
Oh please god help

I look into this world
Through other eyes
I am staring at myself
With memories that are not mine

These faces more and more, growing on my chest
They ta

Receiving spells upon my life
From a place of horror and darkness
Haunted by black witchery
My soul is pulled into the abyss

Fear tortures my mind
Fear drives me insane
Scream out the agony and pain
Fear

Haunted by frightening nightmares
The unsol

It's my way, inflicting myself pain
I'm so in love with myself today
In preparation, of my suffocation
I hide myself from the light of day
My fantasy becomes reality
Make me fulfill my destiny
My desire is making me a liar
What i do is not for you to see

In dark

You seem me as an enemy
What have i done wrong?
What have you got against me?
Do you really know?!!

The hate you feel for me
Is not yours
But your forefather's
And ithose before
You do not know why
This is so
It's only history
That you follow

F

Can you live with me, as you all see me
Are you satisfied, by what you see
Am I approved to live, enough that I give
Allright that I live
Fine where I live

Am I free to be
The way I want to be

Are you sure of me, the way I want to be
Are you sure of me, can I

You behave like someone I don't know
Not like the person I used to know
How did you become like this
You became what I hate the most

Liar

I watch you and think how could this be
You're not my friend nor enemy
The best in you I try to seek
But every time you're

You hide yourself behind a mask
A mask of hypocrisy
You don't know passion or sympathy
I disgust your greed
You're only thinking about yourself
You don't care 'bout me
Lying and cheating to reach your goal
To leave me in misery

Strive for power live for yourself

I can't suppress, the urge inside
The addiction controls my mind
Searching for the infant flesh
To fulfill my desire

I will seek and I will find
The life, the body will be mine
So young, so pure
I need the pleasure, more and more

The addiction, my excuse, my r