Feels like I was born
with a black hole as a soul
Devouring all the light
Chaos engine inside
Feels like I wasn't meant to be
nothing more than a stranger to all

Every loved one
now and before
I will miss you all
I am waiting in silence
the darkness to c

No god above to hear prayers
No guardian angels to lead my way
I carry marks of different race
Amongst you cannot find my place
Where do I belong?
Not by myself but alone
Restless soul without a home
I carry marks of a different race
Amongst you cannot fin

4.16 a.m.
All the small things grow 1000 times
I was murdered by beauty

[music: P. Willman | words: P. Willman]

4.16 a.m.
all the small things grow 1000 times

This sense of failure haunting still
lack of confidence feeding my fear
descending sun invites the darkness in
the child inside, with silent cry

I don't want to be alone...again...

Starfire above when darkness descends
no angels of empyrium have come to send me

Deep inside me is a world of fear
Deep inside me beyond compare

I seek my saviour
to prevent my failures

Breathing hate with twisted grin
please separate me from that skin

Worth for nothing
do all these tears this world is dying
acts inhuman
Making me ch

Dreamworld so dark
Where I follow your trace
Only place where I can see your face
Feel your touch
Feel your skin
So long I have been waiting
To feel you in my arms
And I wish to be
Buried inside the abyss
Where light has withered and died
And my

One circle of sun ago I saw in you some colours
Instead of 13 shades of gray
Today your name disgraced with your shape erased from pictures
Like 8th day of creation
When all is said, I prefer to hear only voice of silence
When air turns bad between us, breathing turns to

Words unspoken
And plans left undone
Thoughts so dark to share with someone
Eyes deceive
And words mislead
Hardly an open book for you to read
Read between the lines
See behind my eyes
Touch something inside
Anything to wake me up and realize
Mis

All befell an instant
A blink of an eye and all was gone
Devastation, its most simple form
The recent events
Some sort of destruction
Came without a warning
Revealed, unfolded the downfall
Revelation of descent
To a lower level
That i didn't know to exist

Apart from the others I walk
A path that has been forsaken by the sun
Abandoned by light
Only darkness walks beside me

I refuse to play my role
In this badly written play
Cut my strings
And step down in silence
From the stage that gathered
The characters of my life
Became too small, became unwelcome

If you count my failures
A big blank wall
Will be filled with numbers
An

Determination chained to the ground
Like a sledge full of stones
A simple question of self discipline
Will you walk or crawl

Spine breaking load
A burden of our own to shatter the backbone
We all have a cross to bear

Refuse to share or separate, better buried than

I crushed my self fairly well today
with no respect needles so say
I feel my worries are to stay
yes and still
you can find some hope in me
I wonder
Today it shows
the more I know
If I can't see myself too clear
if I malfunctioned from this fear
will you r

End of days
Conclusive in many ways
Burned out and jaded
My blood has become feeble
Strength has escaped
I have been shred by rusty blade
My armor has failed
Cutter is sinking deeper

Watch me fall
And break free

Have trust in me
I have foreseen in

The container of my soul was severed from my shell
At birth I was stigmatized by fires of hell
The hollow space inside is growing still
It's going for the kill
Beneath the bloodred sky the song was born
The sky was bleeding when I sang her the deadsong

By my burning cra

End of days
Conclusive in many ways
Burned out and jaded
My blood has become feeble
Strength has escaped
I have been shred by rusty blade
My armor has failed
Cutter is sinking deeper

Watch me fall
And break free

Have trust in me
I have foreseen in

Behold
The re-arrangement of the skyline
Dead cold horizon
No flames rising

Witness
The disappearance of the dawn
Like rays of light
Have died
One by one

In pitch black sky
No stars to reflect the sun
After all light became undone

Darkness ha

A decade ago I felt like unbreakable
And i had an angel in my songs
A long time hast past, but many things have lasted
I still hear the wings of a seraphim

I am still a sleepless dreamer
Stand behind father and son
Black heart, faithless, unbeliever
Still each night

Repeating questions
To make some sense
Fragile words could offer great defence
Against myself and the creature inside
It's taking me over again
This evil inside me
The cause of my fall
Is giving nothing
And taking all
Failure in re-creation of heaven
And i