with a simple blink of an eye
the trupeter stops
he has run out of breath
he dtops to his knees
to regain his breath
panting and gasping for as much air
as he can fit into his tired lungs
he risses to his feet
with tears in his eyes
he has failed

I can't understand what I do wrong half the time
my judgment is blurred from this last year of defeat
I never once acted like this before I met you
now I'm a simplified sensation
I'm nothing; a laughingstock to some
I'm sorry for my vicious decline into this bedlam you s

falls river farewell. sometimes I sing by myself. alone, away from the angels that hold my hand. as I walked way scared. from the memories that I choked on. memories of you. wiping them away with glass. angels sing songs about you. they bleed in my dreams bringing those memories of you alive. as

I think it would be amusing to sit here and write up a list
Just a list that describes the way I want to destroy myself
Not a simple suicide but a drawn out process of pain
This was all created in my head and can't I stop thinking it
I am taunted by the ignorance between us
I

what else do I need to do? what else can I say? sorry? I have trained myself to love you. but you no longer look at me. why? what have I done to you? I tried so hard to be perfect. but you still throw me aside. I wish I was the symbol of passion. the passion that fills yours eyes. but I was alwa

I've failed in love again.
Will i ever win?
All the pain and suffering.
Born to lose, accept my fate.
Looking back i hate myself for the scars i've left.
I have become my nightmares, I have become my fears.
Everything I've touched has rot away.
Can I redeem myself for

i tested your patience
without you even knowiing
so i continued to throw words
around carelessly
i knew how to get you off
certain words
evoked this beast from you
it was your carless eyes
that strayed away
which brought forth
your true feelings
now te

Tell me what you wish to do?
You know that your wish most likely will not come true
Not to worry because your life has been one big disappointment anyway
Thinking that if I fall asleep to her breathing
It is not despair, it is certainly that I have suffered enough and that I am s

I have to choose what I detest
Either dreaming, which my mind hates
Or action, which my awareness loathes
I am confused
I sit alone in silence
To focus more on the way that I am living
I am losing you
And this place isn't comfortable
I retaliate by not speaking

I am repulsed by the lack of dedication
That you insert into this relationship
Could it be that your head is elsewhere
Could it be that you don't care
All I know is that I am repulsed by the effortless
Teeth missing
But death seems so attractive this time around
Excit

I always pictured you with flowers in your hair. dancing in the dry rain. you held color beyond love. yet the sensation to no longer walk in is alive. in my eyes and heart. and all I could ask was for you to love but I am guessing that was even to hard. breaking the snows silence and this was th

I am impatient and hard to please
No sense of serenity
Habitual neurosis transcends into thoughts of suicide
And when this body lays lifeless, don't patronize me by
Insisting this was all done because of you
I am beyond redemption, even in death i will not speak
I am beyo

I have this massive flaw
I misinterpretation of what
Some think I am or have done
To a group of individuals

It's a one sided story
Fabricated for the better of none
It's hard to forget
Like so many things in life

That is burned deep within
It's hard to let

These words collapse your confidence
Your destructive existence is nauseating
Fake, with no self-esteem; you're nothing
You change with manic uncertainty
Now i will be the master
Now i will choose my boatswain
I push myself in and out of relationships
But i don't know

This is when panic and shock are given out in doses
There is nothing to admire
Absent from this present anxiety is liberation
Malice now exists inside my head
Crush and rebuild
Destroy and organize
I stand above, looking down on this devastation
Words form blindly to

I continue to succumb to mundane hospitality
Fabricating pertinent dinner conversation
Fascinating breath pressing drawls
Asking myself why
Unbelievable isn't it; the way we twist words around just to get that quick fix
I swore someday i'd save myself from
Cum dreamt line

You are worthless and especially ignorant to human life
Words - gestures
Everything I feel towards your existence
Coexists with the hatred I have for mankind
Common consideration cannot coincide with you and me
You talk to offend
And you laugh to belittle
It seems lik

it could have been easier then this. it could have been so much more enjoyable, for the both of us. but it wasn't right. for me to waste time with you. thinking I even had a chance to make a difference in your life. just forget about it. forget about me. I was only trying to make you happy. you

screaming out loud. I loved everyone. I never meant to hurt anyone. just as the nails of so many man before Me, drove through My skin. it seemed to silence His lips. for no one really cared. He then let out a cry that was heard for miles and miles. His love joined in with cries of love. screamin

Me no good soso what fuck u think me
Me no bad buhoo what shit think my life
Say say ye me no wrong si sis si lilly joy
Booby doll ye like hip hop ice cream juice lime sweet
Can i can see ya lovely g g spot
A spot ma mouth the taste hoola hoola kiss me on my dick
Wa wa wa