If only I was someone else
I could have tried to help myself
It could have been so safe and good
But now's enough, enough's enough

If only I could give it up
The only lie I'd ever told
It could have been so bittersweet
But now's enough, enough's enough

I could

I cannot take this new existence made
Of promises I made myself
A lie, a lie in wait

The truth
The truth

Leave me be if I ever find myself in darkness and decay
Leave me be if I fall through the cracks and far away

I cannot take the wait of my mistakes
It bu

Quiet
I can feel your heartbeat
I can feel your soft words
Enveloping all of me

All these years
I've waited for the day to come
Show me how
You can invoke such feelings from me

Sweetly
I can sense you're near me
Is it all so delicate
As I balance h

Don't wait I’m
Cold and gone
Before you know
Before you know

In all I've
Done alone
I'm older now
I’m older now

Love I've become
All I shouldn't have done
The sum of everything
That I knew was wrong

I'm far too tired
For this
You're o

If I could change all I could
Would it be enough to prove I’m good
Through the years I’ve never told
Anyone that I’ll destroy my own

And I long for a day like this again
When I’ll never lose control

If I could change all I knew
Would it ever be sincere or true

Failing
Today I'm not playing the fool again
Hopeful that I could win
You're changing the rules again
Taking the bait again
All things you'd never allow

I never thought that I
That I could hold on
Long enough to
Mean anything
I know I wasn't all that

Holding on
Feeling everything I am come undone
I wish I could just evaporate
Take my thoughts and slowly separate
It all starts and ends with you

I can't stop the violence in my mind
Everyday I try just to survive

Through my skin
I can't cope with feeling anyt

Love, I'm waiting to tell you that I'm fearless
And I am disappearing, but I won't fight

Please let me go in peace
The night it pulls me in

You cannot help me
I'm reeling and I need this
I'll soar above everything I've seen

Please let me go in peace
The nigh

Hope is not the guiding light
All I have is lost

To life is all for nothing
To life is all for nothing

Far I've had to fall
In the dark I grow

To life is all for nothing
To life is all for nothing

All I've done for nothing
(I could never believe
I

I can hear a pen drop here
Inside my mind you'll only find the shadows
Of what's come before
An emptiness I've nurtured on

I wasn't meant to see the Sun
Washed out and pale away and done
I wasn't meant to be the one
Hollow and hard and meant for none

Slowly co

Love is just a game, you once said
Never thought I'd win it the way I did
If everything is gold why is this over?
Another wasted day on my own

And I thought that love was mighty
I never seen it all fall apart

Let me rest a while
You're all I've got, but I'm tired

Give me time and I will learn
That I'm only human
And I must love myself
Above anyone else

Cause they thought I was made for this
But I lied to myself

So take this hollow heart of mine
And fill it up with all the words
That I have heard a thousand times
It

Love, I'm sorry
I'm lenient, I was wrong again
But I'm so tired of explaining that I'm fine
But I always try to find a place with you

Please, come closer
I'm lonely and scared today
And I can't bear it
A lonely wasted anyway
But I always try to find a place with

All along I have known that forlorn is what I've become
Never far from being afraid of something that myself had made

My only lie
Was to tell myself
I wasn't trying
On and on

Still, always, it isn't the same
I'll steal away the light that you gave
Find a way t

Let go of these promises
They hurt and never ease and I
Know, know all of the lies you told

I won't melt, I'm not afraid
These choices will come back again, and I'll go, go, into the night again

Because
I belong on my own, and
I belong with nothing at all
I ow

I tried everything
To soothe my soul
How can it ever end
If I can't regain some control from you

From you

All I knew was tainted by the things you said
But I will never change for me today

Turn me, I'm over it
I need some peace
I've had enough of these

Nights in white satin, never reaching the end
Letters I've written, never meaning to send
Beauty I'd always missed with these eyes before
Just what the truth is, I can't say anymore

'Cause I love you
Yes, I love you
Oh

Gazing at people, some hand in hand
Just

Sometimes I don't understand
How I'm supposed to feel
You speak to me in verse and lines
I cannot breathe between

I'm not lonely if I
Can hold on to it all
I'll try this time
I'll be better than before

Escape from this
I never was pristine
I have disgu

Once again I'm waiting on my own
I was healthy before you came along
I won't fight now, I'm weary
All I can see is my only chance to get away

You call my number, I'm ready to let go
I've a second chance to make it on my own
I won't fight now, I'm weary
All I can see

Only I can be and everyone
But you can't see the damage that you've done
And love is not the answer, I know
That though the water's shallow I still drown

But I'm hopeful that one day
The frost will thaw eventually
And come to comfort me

Misery was only part of me<