I cannot bite my tongue tonight
You're the reason I'm sick inside
You left me high and dry
And I will never know why

You packed your bags full of memories
To this day I cannot believe you could take
All we had, all we said
And just leave it for dead

So you bet

I think you say sorry too much, I think you've got issues with trust
From the voices in your head that say that you're too hard to love
I think you still live with the ghost of people you needed the most
That let you down and taught you how to keep your closet door closed

But I

Killing myself for a nine-to-five
My boss gets richer while I just survive
But I don't eat without the overtime
Somebody, kill me

I work so hard, but it ain't enough
My car broke down, then my rent went up
Guess failure's something that's just in my blood
Somebody,

I wish that I had somebody to call when I am not okay
I wish that I had anyone who cared when I am in that place
I wish I could have a mental breakdown
Without turning my life into a ghost town
So many things I would change
But more than anything

I wish somebody loved m

Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud
But I built walls so high so they never even make a sound
It's a mask, it's a lie, it's the only home I've ever known
'Cause being who I really am has only left me more alone

I am not okay, and I need you to see it

Take my hand and look me in the eye
There’s still time left
Cut these chords and kid run for your life

Maybe you’re broken, maybe you’re shattered
With no reasons left to try
But you still have so much, so much worth saving
That you have left on the inside

I know

I feel a pulse, yeah, I'm still breathing
I've got a pound in my chest that's beating
I've been forsaken, I've been forgiven
Oh, but there's something missing
I felt the sting of my convictions
The only path to my redemption
I'm alive but I'm not living
I want more th

Welcome to this madhouse, madhouse
The church of mental breakdowns, breakdowns

Come on in this blue gown's clean (clean)
Kill your vitals join the flat line creed (creed)
Take your meds, don't complain
Insanity's the price you'll pay
Shackled by the fantasy
We know

I hate you, you hate me
I think we both know why
So bad for each other
That don't kill the appetite
You bend me, you break me
And then we press rewind
We can't fight the hunger
Willing victims every time

Every time you cross my mind
It's like a moth drawn to

Woke up again in the pouring rain
I feel the windows shake, thunder in my brain
Every thought is like a hurricane
Destroying everything but it leaves no trace

Four walls made of skin, feeling paper-thin
Don't know if they can take what they're holding in
It's death thre

Fake smiles are holding me together
For worse or for better 'cause I've never had anyone
To stay long enough to see the weather
The pain and the pressure I carry like a loaded gun

Been through things that you can't see
A kind of suffering the eyes don't notice
Rather hi

How many nights have you waited for someone to care
Thinking dying is what you deserve?
Like a sad song that no one seems to understand
'Cause some pain is just too much for words

No, I don't know your name, no, I can't see your face
But I've been to that place in the dark<

It's been one of those days
Counting down the seconds 'til I can just go to sleep
Forget my whole existence 'cause everything's wrong
Nothing goes right
I'm done (I'm done)
Whenever I say it couldn't get worse
It does (It does)

Had enough now the hope feels hollow

I've played out the scene so much in my head
I have to wake up, but I'd rather be dead
Haunted by thoughts of the ones I love most
I picture them living alone with my ghost

Kill the pain and kill the family
Choke the dark down, just be happy
Talk myself off of this ledg

Used to pull down my sleeves, used to put make-up on
So everyone would think I'm fine and nothing's wrong
I buried all the pain, you still feel so ashamed
Of all the things I wrote about myself with razor blades
But I kept holding on, until the final page
Survive the story 'c

Thank you for hating me
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Thank you for hating me

I used to lose so much sleep over what you stole from me
But now the tables turned. I'm the lion, you're the sheep
You turned my vulnerability on me like a weapon (oh-oh)
But taking knives in the back r

Stop telling me that it's okay like it's gonna get better
I've heard every damn cliché, been stuck here forever
In my own head I'm a prisoner
And you're not much of a listener
I have always been this way
Can't outrun the pouring rain

I'm so sick of waiting on the Sun

Where were you when I was at my worst?
Wouldn't put me first, that's the part that hurts
That's the part that hurts

Another call unanswered has got me losing sleep
And now I'm questioning, were you ever listening?
You know me more than most do, and that's what cuts so deep<

Would anyone notice
If tonight I disappeared
Would anyone chase me?
And say the words that I need to hear

That I'm no burden
Not so worthless
Bent so much that I just might break
All-consuming
So confusing
The questions that keep me awake

Would anyone

You see that glass half empty
Each time you look in the mirror
It's like the more you're trying
Your flaws start showing up clearer

You bleed emotion so devoted to what people say
So sick of hoping so you focus on all your mistakes
Stop changing, there's nothing to fix